Within a day.. we kinda of talked things out. I really hope this is for the better.. I'm willing to put in effort to improve the relationship. I think Jay is suffocating coz of me.. I should really give him more space..
I also hope that I would be convinced tat he is going to be ready to settle down..

Now, it is time for me to concentrate on my training for my run and studies..

Jia you to myself..

It's time to catch up with long lost frds too! If anyone of ya wans to meet me.. call me.. Haha!

It's time for a time out.. we can't seem to communicate anymore. I missed those honeymoon days suddenly.. that's when we really put in the effort to listen to one another and resolve problems more willingly for each other.. Guess the problem lies in me.. I have to think through and overcome them.. arrgg.. this really frustrates me..

I've been really moody lately. Especially between me and jay.. I dunno wat's going on.. I'm easily upset with him. I feel that he doesn't need by company anymore.. he has his soccer and frds and that's it. He used to invite me to his dinner with his frds and stuff.. but now.. i'm asked to settle my meals on my own.. although he message me to say how important i am to him, I dun really see it through actions.
I guess this is the space that my frd was telling me abt.. After reaching a certain point in a relationship, 2 parties will realise that we should provide space for one another.
But i'm struggling.. i'm not used to it.. Maybe I've been spending too much of my time with him. Maybe he's getting tired of me..

I always have the tendency to over commit myself to my love life.. And I always ended up feeling upset. How I hope I can turn back time to restraint myself from falling deeper into a well..

I have decided. If he needs the space, I'll give it to him. This means that I should have the space for myself too! I have been trying so hard to give tuition and music to earn extra money for our future.. but these are not the things that I enjoy doing the most! Maybe I should relook into what interest me and juz go for it! That sounds like a more healthy relationship.. :)