I've spent a real good time with Jason yest.. we went to watch 10 000 bc. It was great! There's so many things to do!! Last weekend I attended my ex music classmate's wedding. It was Awesome!! It was held at the asian civilization mueseum.. And guess what.. i was rudy! He was from PESS too. He happened to know my frd's husband. We got to know a few new friends and took pictures together. Check out the night scene there.. so nice!
During the solemnisation, the pastor mentioned that for a woman to love a man, she has to understand her man very much but just have to love a little. However, for a man to love a woman, one has to love his woman very much but understand a little. That's because, there are so many things that women would do when man just couldn't rationalize their actions.. haha.
We also got to accept the fact the god made man and woman for a reason. The man is there to help make decisions for the family. That doesn't mean that women doesn't have a say.. they can offer suggestions and man has to listen to consider their wive's ideas before making a decision. The pastor also said that man often hopes that his wife will not change (stay pretty forever), and woman hope that man will change their characters for the better. However, we have to face the fact that all these ideals wun work. In fact very minimal possibilities.. It was interesting to listen to him. My frd's husband sang and played the piano as a gift for his wife. While Eliz, my gal friend was giving her thank you speech to her family, she teared. I was very touched too. Anyway, I enjoyed myself that night.
Before that I was with Lynn at Chinatown heritage center doing our assignment. We went for massage after that.. Felt really good!

I had a great time at the army museum today.. but had to rush for tuition.. Grace's results have not been good.. there must be a way to improve her concentration span.. I'm trying a way now.. c if it works.. I had a good long talk with darling. It has been really long since we talk.. Then my bro accompany to eat dinner.. i'm tired now.. so many things to do.. shall do it tml... nitey..

Hi,
I'm so disappointed with myself today. I submitted my essay latest. I feel that there's so many other things to write but juz not enough time to do so. I really dun understand, I did this 3 days ago.. but of coz things are still not done. I spent too much time on reading the reference books and started late writing. It's so irritating. haiz. angry with myself.
This afternoon, I met up with my dance club committee members. They were all very nice people. I thought the ,makan session was really a good getting to know each other session. Btw, it was at SAkuRA international buffet restaurant. I had a great time mingling with them. We were able to stick to the the 1 hour meeting plan. It's 1 hr 15 mins actually but good enough with so many things to settle. I see a bright future for our club and I'm so happy!
Later, I took a cab and rushed for tuition, den took cab again to amk to have a crab feast with ruoying, lapyin, eric, van, swee bin and bf. Each had to pay about 45 bucks. Expensive rite! but i enjoyed the food very much. I would have enjoyed it better if i had finished my essay. aarrrggg.. I better start improving on my time management.. if not working skill. I feel that I dun have the motivation to don assignments that involves writing! I must change this perception. I should ENJOY...ENJOY ENJOY!!!
Dear's not coming back today.. miss him... he sounded so serious juz now.. I hope things are fine there.
I'm really worried abt the terrorist escape.. hope he would be caught soon..

Hi,
I've just came back from supper. Had mee sua from upper changi rd.. Darling promised me to bring me there and he did! That cheered me up. I had dinner with my family at amk just now. I realised I really missed them. But I dun really know how to express to them. I shared with them about what i learnt from sports psychology. I love to share abt this coz it's my fav module for this semster. haha..
I bad news it i realised that i'm a high ego person. I hav to try to switch to both high to be a happier person. Maybe that's due to the way we are being brought up. My parents always compare me with others from young and that formed the way i am today. And when i compare and i am not better, i'll get very much affected. I think this is really bad for me and i have to improve on this man.. I wanna be a happier and better person!
Just now, I did not give dear a good night kiss coz i'm afraid of being rejected by him in front of his frd. But he was kind of affected and I was glad that we talked abt it. At least we hav common mindset and we wun hurt each other.
I had to teach nana and grace tuition tml.. jiayou! Dear has 3 soccer games.. we will all be busy.
Oh ya! just now my dad accidentally spill the discus fish water in the car.. I was so scared that dear will be angry.. luckily he was forgiving enough.. really appreciate him for that. hehe

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I've been so busy from yesterday till today! no time to breathe and sleep.. But it's all over now. Completed an assignment and 2 theory tests. I had the 1st dance committee meeting yesterday. I'm very excited to be in charge of the committee and will do my very best achieve our goals. Yippie! At least I have a new challenge to face for the semester.
I have yet to share about my valentine's day celebration. We went suntec and had a meal and watched movie. The bad news was we lost a stack of gv tickets. So sian..
Going to sleep early. gtg nitey.

Guess what.. dear called me 5 mins before 12am. I thought he was going to talk to me till the clock strike 12.. but he didn't.. haiz.. he was at his friends' place. He initiated to hang up the phone.. Anyway, I counted down myself and called him. Keke. I wish, every step we take will bring us closer in anyway, be it fights or hugs. Understanding, respecting and supporting which reflects true love for each other.. how good it would be if actions could be done as easily as how words are being said.. :)

Hello,
haiz... back in school. I'm still feeling a little weak. Today we had softball assessment. Felt that I didn't play well today. so sian. Later, i went for dance. I'm the chairperson for Dance Fusion from next week onwards. Not very sure why i took this post. But I thought it would be another good challenge for me.
I've been very temperamental lately and Jason has been very tolerant. He brought me for tuition and den school today. He waited for me to finish tuition outside my student's hse! Haiz. Time fly so fast! we are also a yr together! I really hope we can stay happy forever. Still put in effort in our relationship and not take each other for granted. Haiz, I'm think about my USA trip. Although i'm very excited over the trip, I'm also a little half hearted now coz of him. Going to miss him..
I feel so slack! Better pull up my socks and work hard. TML is jay and my 11 months anniversary. And also my cousin, yan yan's birthday. Going ktv at orchard. Think I better rest early.. gtg bye bye..

hello! I'm proud to announce that I've recovered from my stupid fever! yesterday was a nightmare.. had to go visting despite my headaches and dizziness. I din hav appetite to eat anything at all. However, I had to force myself to eat as I dun wanna be rude. It was a torture..

My final destination was to go dear's place. My parents actually asked me not to go because I was really feeling unwell. However, I insisted coz i dun wanna disappoint them.

Dear kept me company most of the time and I appreciate it. I took medicine at his place twice and recovered! I dunno y.. although he has been by my side throughout when i'm sick, i still feel that something is missing. am i not receptive anymore, or is it him who is not as affectionate as before? or have we drifted apart without knowing? or has our past arguments caused us to become the way we are now?

At this point of time, he always makes me feel i'm in the wrong somehow or another. I feel that my expectations of him is getting higher and higher. And i think this is really unhealthy coz this would lead to many disappointments when he couldn't reach them. Therefore, I've decided to chill and let loose. He keeps saying i'm possesive and sticky.. guess I'll change that too. Maybe it's safer to be the type of gf I used to be..

being in love many times before
mould and change the gal for more
change is good or bad for the future
time will reveal and too late to undo
love has the power to bring us to heaven
it can also force us to travel to hell
being able to live happily ever after
is just another fairytale story to tell..

haiz.. I am still sick since yesterday and it's new year! haiz.. Hope I'll recover soon.. Darling came to accompany me last night.
During the eve, my bro, dear and i went chinatown! I was really crowded. I'm very happy that I got to meet up with my relatives whom we only meet once a year. Well, I'm just going to forget abt my illness and go visiting.. wanna fully utilize this holiday. dun wanna stay at home at all. I took many photos.. shall upload when i'm free.

well.. dear and i have come to the point when we realised our differences and it's really up to us to settle our differences. He told me a few things abt me today which he can't stand. As promised, I tried not to say anything anymore, although there r many things which i wanna say. I just dun wanna quarrel. What he says maybe right.. but i wonder if he thinks abt why i do certain things or aren't he interested to know my point of view? Guess silence seems to solve our argument. is this method of talking things out going to solve the prob? Actually this was the same painful cycle i went through the past.. and things din turn out well. Hope this vicious cycle will not repeat again...

I really had a good time last SATURDAY!! It was a busy day. I went for manicure and ended up doing my hair and make up. Thanks to Zyma my make up artist. She's so nice.. However, I rushed like mad. Took a cab and asked the uncle to wait for me outside my house while i get my clothes for my performance.

During the rehersal for the PESS BASH, I sang Lynn part. Keke. Too excited le. I was always scared for dance la. Din really practice for this performance. The Best thing is, I made a mistake during the dancing in the moonlight. Luckily, I just kept smiling. haha. Hopefully no one knows except for my band members keke. FOr zombie, none of us made mistakes. Hooray! Dr Bala commented that we were the best band! I felt that the hard work that we did really paid off yesterday. A little disappointed because my band din get to finish another 2 songs.

My darling was in time for my dance. He was there for all my performance that day. I really felt loved and support by him. After bash, I just kept drinking. keke I wanna have fun! I dared to drink because I knew dear dear was there to protect me. I still rem him asking me about marriage. It was so sweet. But I'm not taking it as a formal proposal. haha. I know darling can do better than that. ;p

I went to look for my cousins and saw my sec sch friends around.. PLayed 7 ups witht the degree

yr 2s. It was so fun! Drank lambogini before i played and after losing a few more rounds i started feeling tipsy. keke.

I'm so happy and touched because honey was there throughout for me although he doesn't like to club anymore. I'm sure he doesn't enjoy as much as I do.. when i asked him, he said that when he sees me that happy, he's also happy! I love him! :)

Hiya.. today is one of the moodiest day of my life! Maybe it's because i'm having PMS. I felt hurt many times today. It seems like I'm easily offended. Feeling that i'm the worst person on Earth! However, I've got to see a clearer picture on many things and feel better now.
Anyway, Lynn and I would be singing together on Sat. I thought it was a good idea as i wouldn't feel so nervous with a partner around. After practising together, I felt that we could sing much better than when I'm singing alone. Will be looking forward to sing with her on Sat.
We won ICG netball today. When I just arrive, Jean passed me the center position. I felt quite disappointed when few of my friends seem to lose faith in me. Of coz i wun play better than Jean.. but at least dun show me the "huh.. y u dun play let rachel play center" that kind of look. At that time, we were already leading by 6 balls i think. After much tot, I think, everybody has different goals when playing game. Jean wants to do her duty as she was in charge of netball, the rest of us are playing all out to win. Maybe that's y they were afraid that losing her in the team for that game would be risky. But luckily i didn't really create any major mess. I got to catch a number of balls over to our attacking side.. I'm too emotional, too sensitive, i know.. easily affected by surroundings. but a normal person would feel the same if he/she were me right?
few hours ago, lynn and I were learning singing from van's sis! there's so many techniques to learn.. But it's interesting..
Just now i was so sad and darling was so sweet to listen to my worries and cheered me on. I felt so much better after talking to him. Though we can't meet up, I know he'll be there for me.
Swee bin was so nice too. She could sense that I was very moody and asked if i'm ok.. she's such a caring frd.. going to pay it forward.. :)

It's been a long time since i blog.. My class had won 2nd for frisbee interclass game. I caught and earned the 1st point for the finals. I'm starting to slack during class! But i can't stop my momentum now.. I still wanno do well.. Haiz.. dunno y i feel moody today. Happy that dear came to see me at sch though. He doesn't seem to praise me anymore.. sad.. only made fun of my negative points.. even entering a door he also can criticise.. is it me or is it him? Just take it that i'm having my PMS.
I'm excitied about sat's performance. going to dance and play the band. At least these are things to distract me from all my worries and unnesssary stuff..
I've visited the national bowling federation. Wendy, the general manager is a super friendly person. Had a great time talking to her.
The bad news is, I lost my ring.. hope i can find it soon..

I'm back! I've finished jogging for almost an hour today! But i felt hungry and had to cook instant noodles. dunno it has defeit my purpose for exercising to lose weight. Think I'm really motivated and till now.. though it's only the 2nd week, i'm still enthu about it. Lib is my 3rd home now, besides my own hse, hall and darling's place. haha. But today i din visit the lib. I went to mph to pract volleyball. Andre gave me many useful teaching cues like the ball has to be above ur forehead, my hands have to face each other and cushion and cup it and den extend upwards together with your legs etc. However, I suffered more bruises on my arm. See the pics!

During softball lesson, I learnt new knowledge abt the use of shortstop to tag player during forced play. batter will always take the longest time to run to their base as they can't steal their bases. We also did crossover which I had to move our non dominant foot to our dominant side to catch the ball with our glove. If the batter did not touch the ball and the catcher catches it, the catcher has to tag the runner running from the 3rd to the homebase. He/she should not step on the base as the runner is stealing the base. If it's a fly ball, the fielder can either tag or step on the base that the runner is running to.

After lesson, we went to watch hall 6 play bball. It was quite an interesting match. Van was playing. The members were very encouraging and pretty united. Managed to see how Jack play. So passed several nice passes. It was so cool!

After that I went back down to the hockey pitch. Went to throw some frisbee as well as supporting rosenna's class. Their class consisted of different talents such as fastest sprinter in singapore, national soccer player, basketballer and a few all arounders. They won 2 games and lost 1. My class would be playing tml. HOpe we'll have enough people for the game. THe more the merrier.

I've not talked much with dear dear since the day he came and look for me in ntu. He was so sweet to help me get my jersey and drove all the way here to pass it to me as i needed it for the following day for games and class photo. I brought him to the highest point in NTU and we spent sometime chatting. As I saw him so tired, i couldn't bear but to ask him to go home and rest early. He had just finished one of his quite shiong exercise.. He sounded so tired. Hope he's ok. Looking forward to see him during the weekends.

We have taken our class photos.. Yippe.. check it out!

Know why am I uttering all the rubbish letters... coz van was stamping on my keyboard!!! arrggg.. naughty gal!
I was saying.. everytime i woke up, i checked my hp, hoping to see Jason's message.. till morning.. i din receive any from him. However, he eventually told me that he was very busy the whole day.. I din really had time to talk to him too until at night. I'm getting more and more irritated by my hp. The reception of it sux.. I dun get to call out or message several times. Then I'm always afraid I might miss any important calls, especially from him. He doesn't sound very happy today.. guess he was bored with the blackout at his camp, it makes the situation worse..

Well, for my side, school has been great. I enjoyed practically every lesson. Tried to pay attention so far.. except that there are a few lecturers which worries me. Anu mentioned that this year, I seemed very paranoid.. Perhaps i am.. coz I trying too hard to make everything work out for me. I wanna get good grades etc.. But maybe this would help me to do better with stress.

This year, my resolutions are as follows
1) Punctuality -> now, it's not only for lesson, but everything, inclusive of dates, meetings etc.. This would certainly help me with my time management skills. :)
2) Study hard and play hard -> getting gd grades is my aim. I'll try to do my sch work during week days and enjoy my weekends with my love ones. But I love to enjoy my life as well..
3) PAss my music grade 7 pract exam -> which means I have to pract my music be confident when i enter the exam room
4) Save $$ -> I need to learn how to keep track of how much i earn and spend in order to save
5) Be a good gf -> well I wun have as much time to spend my dear dear. However, I should still give him my support in everything he does, show my care and concern plus understanding. Shall try not to be possesive. Haha. Maybe not possesive, but PARANOID. Keep asking if he still loves me.. coz I need lots of assurance. Ma fan right.. keke. But I know darling loves me and he will do his best to do anything for me. (rite dear? if u r reading? ;p) I will do the same.. coz i love him too :)
6) Be a good daugther and sis -> spend more time with my family
7)Be a kinder person -> Try not to be too skeptical. Sometimes i think too much. I may be oversensitive at times. Help my friends when i can.. Listen to them when they need me.. Not to friends. Do anything good to help people who r in need.

I'll add more if there are more.. But guess 7 of them are enough for the year.. I wanna be a better person. Looking forward to do it! Yeah! I'm tired le... going to sleep now.. bye!

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Look at these Photos! With my new haircut, i went to meet xiuzhen for sushi buffet at toa pa yoh.. Then, i went to meet roy in town. He accompanied me there to buy the swaroski crystal for my dear.. the photo with jason behind-- i didn't know he came and he gave me a shock after my bro took the photo! Haha.. My baby is stuck in camp now.. confinement.. so dun get to see him for a week.. Today was my 1st day of sch and went to sch not to attend lesson but to settle my timetable. I nearly din get to do softball! Luckily everything was settled. Thankfully.
I think I better come out with some resolution for this year. At least there are things to motivate me. Recently i felt life being boring again.. THink something is wrong with me.. Maybe the expectation of me of life must be always colourful.. THis time, I want it to be more meaningful to make a better person.. I will think abt it and blog again tml.. A lot of reflections needed here.. haha

Everything seems to be quite unstable between dear and me these days.. Both are at fault I think.. But we've talked things out and I really hope whatever we have agreed to do would be done to improve our relationship.. Guess if we are serious about this relationship, then we should take each other's words seriously..
There will always be a phase when partners would just take each other for granted and we just have to gently remind each other how to resolve the problem. We know that we love each other. But we have different ways of showing love to each other and demand different ways of receiving love from each other. It's all about complementing each other I guess..
Yesterday, my love had BBQ at his place. I almost the whole day with his mum to prepare the food for him. It was quite fun yet tiring. He seemed to enjoy himself.. I feel happy when he's happy.. :)
I just came back from prata shop. Saw adrian from ZPS. Asked him to plan another gathering session. Den I saw Steven, who is my classmate from poly. He dun seem to recognise me though..keke But I'm happy to see familiar faces around..

Guess wat.. The school held my results because I did not pay for my hall fees! Yesterday, with darling, we sent to the finance office to pay up the fees and wanted to surf the wireless to c my results. Guess what, there were some configuration prob and i had to go the library. Irritating isn;t it? haiz.. anyway, when i saw my results, I saw an A- for my critical perspective module which I thought I would be able to get it.. I was pretty pessimistic as I tot that is going to be the only A- throughout the 5 modules. Immediately, darling ran away with my laptop keeping me in suspense.. I had to ran around the library to search for him!! Anyway, I was quite surprised. I had A- for Social Studies as well as basketball! Yippie.. the next 2 modules were B+.. This is the first time having 3 A- on the report card.. keke. Shall work harder the next semester..

Darling and I had went suntec to search for his friend's wedding gift. There were some displays which i find them very nice from a jewellery company.. The angels were beautiful..

We decided to go orchard instead.. swarvoski.. and bought the crystals... They were beautiful! We went around taking lots of photos in orchard.. so fun! we played icecream like little kids.. Watched Red Line.. Nice movie..

Today I was the mc for the music concert recital. it went pretty well.. I met darling straight at rendevous hotel for the ROM ceremony of Weiming.. They seem very happy.. I'm also happy for them.. Next darling and me went marina square. We briefly walked through and headed to amoy street for my waxing session! darling offered to pay the package for me yippie! I'm going ot treat him koshimbo lunch at suntec in return. I feel that he really adores me as he knows i'm really broke now.. I told him in future when I have my earnings, I wouldn't have to depend so much on him already.. ;p

I realised we have him arguing lately.. the things he said has begun to offend him at times. I wonder y? Perhaps now we have come to a stage where he is so used to me and he feels comfortable joking all the time.. Well, I liked my honey's humour. It bring joy to my life. However, there are really times when i really need him to be serious and make me feel loved by him...I know he loves me. But we gals just need assurance. "Kind words bring laughter and joy to people" I learnt this from the church I was teaching music there. Well, everything needs a balance to it.. I dun expect darling to be serious all the time.. It'll be so boring! keke. Just wan him to be sweet at times to melt my heart.. Haha.. A little effort of doing it will made me happy :)

As for me, I think I've been quite petty recently, coz I wanted Darling to be more sentimental but he jokes about almost everything which includes things which I'm sensitive about caused me to be frustrated. Guess my expectations makes me lose my temper. I guess i just have to chill and give my love a chance to express himself in his own way.. We shall compromise, instead of expecting him to do certain things and end up showing him a black face when he doesn't do it, I'll express myself and tell him what i really love and hope we can figure and try to work things out together. If we love each other, we'll be able to work it out! Whatever dear has done for me has been greatly appreciated.. Till now.. Will not take him for granted for sure..