Sunday was good.. went for music.. dear told me that he decided not to ply soccer if i had plans to go out with him.. So SWEET.. Later he told me that he might have game at 3 and 5pm.. I was a little mad initially.. but he told me it was a joke.. Anyway, he still kept his word. THat's the outcome and it's still sweet. We didn't spend time together alone but with his family, then my family. But I still enjoy every minute of it. I went over to his place to give help his sis with her spelling for the next day. Then, we all went to singapore expo to look at the car show. Then we joined my parents for dinner. Later my bro suggested to go ktv and jason agreed although i know usually he's not really keen for it. I really find it sweet when he's so accommodating. I wanted to spend time with him alone seiously.. but since my bro was so keen, i also couldn't bear to reject him. I made the effort to blog now because, i want to make it a pract to blog happy events which i'd love to rem about.. not only blog when i'm upset.. coz that's usually the case. Haha. Love Jason more and more each day..

What a humid morning.. I'm going for music lesson in a while.. Yesterday, Jason picked me up fro my jamming session. I din really enjoy it maybe becoz my heart wasn't into it.. maybe without Jason's presence. He came to fetch me after that. We went for lunch and returned to his place for a nap. Later we met my best friend Xiuzhen. We went to a turkish restaurant for dinner. Quite interesting. Xiuzhen was very upset and I hope going out makes her feel better. We brought her to fetch her daughter and sent her home. Estella is so adorable! Big eyes, just like her mummy.. I wonder when will it be my turn to have a child? How will he or she look like? JAson and me went Punggol End after dat. Times has passed. Many changes has been made there. There's a platform for people to walk, people went there to fish.. JAson and I talked. I mentioned about the message the day before.. He did not even know what went wrong! He was really too tired after the wakeboarding I guess. I was too selfish to think that he did it deliberately to hurt me.. He couldn't bear to hurt me.. Coz he loves me :) and i love him.. for forever and eternity.. that's what we said to each other.. that y i slept soundly last night. haha

Well.. I just came back from a movie with Jason and my bro. We watched "My wife is a gangster 3." I had to attend my sch's anniversary celebration just now. Keilin invited me to join the rest of the collegeues as they were going somewhere else to chill out after the function. However, I already promised Jason to watch the movie he liked yesterday.. so i reject them and went on with our plan.
I made a huge mistake today which I'm sincerely regretful. That is to tell my bro abt something which Jason asked me not to tell. Coz i assumed he was telling me in a jokingly manner and i felt that he would be comfortable coz it's my bro anyway. However I was wrong! He was serious about me keeping the secret and I know that he felt betrayed.. But it wasn't intentional! I know I was at fault and apologised several times. He repeatedly said he's fine and alright.. But on the other hand, his actions and words showed otherwise. From 10 pm all the way until now 3 plus.. he hasn't forgiven me?
Every night, when he reaches home.. he'll msg me to acknowledge me he's home and his msges usually consist of words such as dear, love and all the sweetie stuff.. today, there's none. I asked if he's angry and he said that he's tired. True? I really dunno. I am still on the verge of recovery from my illness and still feel tired. But i dun react this way! Is it a good excuse that when a person is tired, all sweetness that a person could offer in the past is gone for good?
Let's assume if he's still angry with me.. it shows that our love for each other is no longer strong enough to forgive each other. I've tried to put myself in his shoes. I dunno y.. but i wouldn't have the heart to be angry with him unless he's unfaithful or treats me unfairly. Perhaps he's really tired? have he realised that I was also tired? But I want to watch the show becoz he wants to watch it?

I juz wanna make it clear that I always appreciate what he has done for me. He came to my sch to fetch me when i told him i'll be done by 10pm.. I was sick the past few days.. he came and accompanied me.. These sweet things makes a lot of differences.. It keeps me reminded that Jason still cares abt me..

Although he tells me this is still our honeymoon period.. but incidents like this proved otherwise. We have quarrelled last week.. is this going to be a weekly thingie or worse? My phobia of quarrels and unhappiness are coming back.. I'm losing my faith for love once again.. love hurts.. Y do I always have to go through the same thing over and over again? What is love? I seemed lost again.. at the end.. he msg me good night love.. wat's the point after my heart was already broken into pieces again and again.. miss those times when we just got together.. how gentle he was when talking to me.. puts in the effort to forgive me.. with that power of strong love which is disappearing soon.. sad..

I'm always write my blog after the actual day coz i always sleep so late.. I'm so happy! I'll only be working from wed next week. That's becoz monday is Youth Day and tuesday i have to go and collect my transcript, scroll and gown from NIE.
Yesterday was a hectic but fun day.. However, there were opportunity cost involved. I nearly got into a quarrel with Jason several times. Early this morning, he went for his com class and supposed to go my house to fetch me for my jamming practice. He called me after his class. His tone really sux. As if i offended him. It only made me felt that i'm the coz of it was becoz he had to rush back to fetch me. I told myself that he was juz tired and didn't mean to hurt me and suggested him to stay at home to rest. To him, he felt fed up because he rushed out of camp just to go support me at the jamming session and now I told him to stay at home to sleep. Later I decided to invite him to send me again so that his efforts would not go to waste. I had an enjoyable time at clementi where our jamming session was held. Jason seemed entertained by my friends too. I felt good :) I do really appreciate his efforts for sending me down, getting to know my classmates despite him feeling so tired due to lack of sleep.
Faizal called me to tell me that he had 8 tickets for the Kalland stadium closing ceremony. I was so excited as this is something that we singaporeans should learn to experience it for the last time. I thought Jason would be interested as I'm interested. However, I was very disappointed when he told him he did not want to go. Later, he decided to join us. How sweet. He could have chose to be with his friends after soccer. However, he decided to go with me. I ws delighted.
Another commotion happened becoz i had prob with my time management. I supposed to go pick my bro and my dad and then go to look for jason. However, i misjudged the time and brought my bro and dad to kallang stadium 1st. From the stadium, i had no idea on how go back to the west to pick sia.