Hi,
I'm so disappointed with myself today. I submitted my essay latest. I feel that there's so many other things to write but juz not enough time to do so. I really dun understand, I did this 3 days ago.. but of coz things are still not done. I spent too much time on reading the reference books and started late writing. It's so irritating. haiz. angry with myself.
This afternoon, I met up with my dance club committee members. They were all very nice people. I thought the ,makan session was really a good getting to know each other session. Btw, it was at SAkuRA international buffet restaurant. I had a great time mingling with them. We were able to stick to the the 1 hour meeting plan. It's 1 hr 15 mins actually but good enough with so many things to settle. I see a bright future for our club and I'm so happy!
Later, I took a cab and rushed for tuition, den took cab again to amk to have a crab feast with ruoying, lapyin, eric, van, swee bin and bf. Each had to pay about 45 bucks. Expensive rite! but i enjoyed the food very much. I would have enjoyed it better if i had finished my essay. aarrrggg.. I better start improving on my time management.. if not working skill. I feel that I dun have the motivation to don assignments that involves writing! I must change this perception. I should ENJOY...ENJOY ENJOY!!!
Dear's not coming back today.. miss him... he sounded so serious juz now.. I hope things are fine there.
I'm really worried abt the terrorist escape.. hope he would be caught soon..

Hi,
I've just came back from supper. Had mee sua from upper changi rd.. Darling promised me to bring me there and he did! That cheered me up. I had dinner with my family at amk just now. I realised I really missed them. But I dun really know how to express to them. I shared with them about what i learnt from sports psychology. I love to share abt this coz it's my fav module for this semster. haha..
I bad news it i realised that i'm a high ego person. I hav to try to switch to both high to be a happier person. Maybe that's due to the way we are being brought up. My parents always compare me with others from young and that formed the way i am today. And when i compare and i am not better, i'll get very much affected. I think this is really bad for me and i have to improve on this man.. I wanna be a happier and better person!
Just now, I did not give dear a good night kiss coz i'm afraid of being rejected by him in front of his frd. But he was kind of affected and I was glad that we talked abt it. At least we hav common mindset and we wun hurt each other.
I had to teach nana and grace tuition tml.. jiayou! Dear has 3 soccer games.. we will all be busy.
Oh ya! just now my dad accidentally spill the discus fish water in the car.. I was so scared that dear will be angry.. luckily he was forgiving enough.. really appreciate him for that. hehe

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I've been so busy from yesterday till today! no time to breathe and sleep.. But it's all over now. Completed an assignment and 2 theory tests. I had the 1st dance committee meeting yesterday. I'm very excited to be in charge of the committee and will do my very best achieve our goals. Yippie! At least I have a new challenge to face for the semester.
I have yet to share about my valentine's day celebration. We went suntec and had a meal and watched movie. The bad news was we lost a stack of gv tickets. So sian..
Going to sleep early. gtg nitey.

Guess what.. dear called me 5 mins before 12am. I thought he was going to talk to me till the clock strike 12.. but he didn't.. haiz.. he was at his friends' place. He initiated to hang up the phone.. Anyway, I counted down myself and called him. Keke. I wish, every step we take will bring us closer in anyway, be it fights or hugs. Understanding, respecting and supporting which reflects true love for each other.. how good it would be if actions could be done as easily as how words are being said.. :)

Hello,
haiz... back in school. I'm still feeling a little weak. Today we had softball assessment. Felt that I didn't play well today. so sian. Later, i went for dance. I'm the chairperson for Dance Fusion from next week onwards. Not very sure why i took this post. But I thought it would be another good challenge for me.
I've been very temperamental lately and Jason has been very tolerant. He brought me for tuition and den school today. He waited for me to finish tuition outside my student's hse! Haiz. Time fly so fast! we are also a yr together! I really hope we can stay happy forever. Still put in effort in our relationship and not take each other for granted. Haiz, I'm think about my USA trip. Although i'm very excited over the trip, I'm also a little half hearted now coz of him. Going to miss him..
I feel so slack! Better pull up my socks and work hard. TML is jay and my 11 months anniversary. And also my cousin, yan yan's birthday. Going ktv at orchard. Think I better rest early.. gtg bye bye..

hello! I'm proud to announce that I've recovered from my stupid fever! yesterday was a nightmare.. had to go visting despite my headaches and dizziness. I din hav appetite to eat anything at all. However, I had to force myself to eat as I dun wanna be rude. It was a torture..

My final destination was to go dear's place. My parents actually asked me not to go because I was really feeling unwell. However, I insisted coz i dun wanna disappoint them.

Dear kept me company most of the time and I appreciate it. I took medicine at his place twice and recovered! I dunno y.. although he has been by my side throughout when i'm sick, i still feel that something is missing. am i not receptive anymore, or is it him who is not as affectionate as before? or have we drifted apart without knowing? or has our past arguments caused us to become the way we are now?

At this point of time, he always makes me feel i'm in the wrong somehow or another. I feel that my expectations of him is getting higher and higher. And i think this is really unhealthy coz this would lead to many disappointments when he couldn't reach them. Therefore, I've decided to chill and let loose. He keeps saying i'm possesive and sticky.. guess I'll change that too. Maybe it's safer to be the type of gf I used to be..

being in love many times before
mould and change the gal for more
change is good or bad for the future
time will reveal and too late to undo
love has the power to bring us to heaven
it can also force us to travel to hell
being able to live happily ever after
is just another fairytale story to tell..

haiz.. I am still sick since yesterday and it's new year! haiz.. Hope I'll recover soon.. Darling came to accompany me last night.
During the eve, my bro, dear and i went chinatown! I was really crowded. I'm very happy that I got to meet up with my relatives whom we only meet once a year. Well, I'm just going to forget abt my illness and go visiting.. wanna fully utilize this holiday. dun wanna stay at home at all. I took many photos.. shall upload when i'm free.

well.. dear and i have come to the point when we realised our differences and it's really up to us to settle our differences. He told me a few things abt me today which he can't stand. As promised, I tried not to say anything anymore, although there r many things which i wanna say. I just dun wanna quarrel. What he says maybe right.. but i wonder if he thinks abt why i do certain things or aren't he interested to know my point of view? Guess silence seems to solve our argument. is this method of talking things out going to solve the prob? Actually this was the same painful cycle i went through the past.. and things din turn out well. Hope this vicious cycle will not repeat again...