hiyi!!
I'm so sad.. I'm so broke now.. I've over spent this month! thank goodness there's bonus next month. I've bought a creative mp3 player for abt 60 bucks. Although 256mb, it can store up to 70+ songs. THat's enough for me I guess. Anyway, it comes with FM radio too, so when i'm sick of the songs, I can simple switch over and listen to the radio. I bought that 2 days ago from the IT show at suntec.
Yesterday, I went there again with my brother. Later, my bf joined us. I bought the print cartridges for my epson printer at 20% discount. My brother bought his portable hardisk at 160 bucks. My bf bought a JVC mini combo for how much u know? the original price was 600++.. guess? It's only 98bucks! cheap rite? THe quality of sound was pretty gd too.. However with all the goody buys, I felt moody yesterday becoz of alittle tiff with my mummy. The IT show was packed with super duper many pple! This frustrates me too.. Adrian could see that I looked moody and tried to cheer me up. I was knew that I'm juz have PMS. Coz my menstration came straight after that and i stained my jeans! damn it! arrrggg. I didn't know it until I was at a pool junction at beach rd wanting to play pool with my bf and his frd and when i visited the toilet den i realised how bad it was. I din dare to move one bit and sat and looked at my bf and his frd ply for more then 2 hrs!
OH yah.. back to the suntec city. My bf had to carry his big heavy box all the way to the car. Therefore we had to take the lift to the 1st floor. We only managed to get into the 4th lift coz everyone was juz inconsiderate. Cutting queue all the time. Y can't pple be more considerate?! i juz don't understand. pple nowadays are getting more and more selfish. I feel so sad for our society.
There were a father and son waiting behind me for my 3rd lift to be opened. When it opened, the little boy juz rushed into the lift. His father didnt even stop him and ask him to wait for adrian and me to enter 1st since we are stand in front of them. And guess wat, once the little boy dashed in, the lift begin to close. I tried to place my hands in between the doors of the lift but it didn't stop closing. I released my hands den and the boy was left alone in the lift. THe father din seem to panic at all. But I think he was on the inside. When we reached the 1st floor finally, I can see the father searching frantically for him. I wanted to help but dun know how. I told him to report to the receptionist. At least they could annouce for him. I hope the boy is found and will learnt his lesson never to cut queue like dat ever again!
At the pool center, I saw this auntie who's at least 50 yrs old working as a "waitress" bringing the food to the customers ard the table. She seems to be limping a little. I wonder of it hurts but it definitely obstructs her to walk normally like us. I kind of sympathize but at the same time respect her resilience and delication to her job despite her ability to walk normally. From this, I've learnt not to give things up easily. Not for any obstacles!
I also went for a foot massage recently. It was so painful! I had to endure the pain for the whole 40 mins. I wonder if i'd still have the courage to go back there for another torturous session! arrrgghh!!!

Hi there.. my holidays has started and i'm juz too lazy to write my events here. HOwever, since i'm so free now, I shall write whatever I can remember I did for the past few days. On last sat, I went for a soccer competition. It was organised by some blood donation charitable org. We won the 1st match but lost the 2nd and 3rd game. It was a great exposure as didn't know that soccer can be that fun!! I've decided to watch the World Cup this season.

My legs hurt for the next few days. My quadriceps were so painful at I couldn't walk properly. Last Sunday, my mum treated us for high tea at Mandarin Hotel. THe food there was nice but it didn't really taste that nice as I quarrelled with my bf over some small issue again. I bought a 100 bucks guess watch at a discounted price.

On Monday, I went for track and field workshop. The new Jap lecturer was very entertaining. She taught us warm ups for sprinting and starting. Imagine a string is attached to ur head. Then someone pulling ur tshirt in front of you. ur pelvis should be aligned to ur plane and not to the back while running. Pushing of the feet was emphasized during running. We were given different starting positions before taking off. That's when my left thigh cramped. It was so painful that my tears rolled down immediately.
For starts, the block should be about 1 and a half feet behind the line. The board for the back foot should be steeper than the board for the front foot. The distance between the front and back should be about 1 foot apart. The posture for startsv- hands 90 degrees, both the knees should be almost touching the ground. THe thumb, middle and last finger should be supporting the whole body.

ON the same day, I met Xiuzhen, my best friend. After lunch with emily, I went to Xiuzhen's hse. Her kids are now so verbal and cute. Her hairstyle is exactly like her daughter. I went wisma and den had dinner at the food court. We then headed to taka. I bought 1 bra, a sports top, 1capri, 1 casual top and 1 belt. This gal as usual is still not very gd with directions. I walked down and up the same escalators twice at different places with her led by her. Haha. Funny gal. Had a wonderful time with her man. It's been so long since I've met her outside sch.

I felt quite disturbed when I realised that one "ex-frd" of mine wanted me to return her some jigzaw puzzle that she asked me to help her do years before. I'm not sure if it's still with me. Coz I thought there was once she came over to my hse to collect it from me already when we were still frds. Anyway, i felt that if she really wants it back she should have called me to return her personally rather than asking my best frd to relay the msg to me. I can't believe that a person can bear grudges for such a long time. Maybe yes depending on the stituation. Something to do with life and death? i'll definitely hate a person for life if he kills the person i love most. I always believe in forgiving pple and giving in and taking and I'm doing it till today. Bearing grudges will only make oneself unhappy.

True friends will make the friendship last no matter how difficult the obtacles that will bring them apart is. I hope this "ex-frd" will accept me again as I am always ready to have her as my frd again. :)
THat's all for today.

hello! I'm back from school camp and slack all the way.. attended lynn's birthday party with my bf's company! Attended his sis's ROM. Today I attended the track and field workshop conducted by Mr Quek. It was very interesting and would be useful to us when we will attached to school to teach. We did discus and relay running today.
For discus, warm up can be done by rolling the disk in front and following behind it. Another activity is to throw the discus upwards with the index finger last touching it juz be4 release and den catch it. Next, we were taught how to swing the discus. Right foot behind. We are not supposed to grip the discus with our fingers. Instead when it is in front of our body the discus should be on our palm facing upwards. when it is sung behind, the tip of the fingers should be touching the discus and keeping it in your hand due to momentum. After 2 swings, we can release already. Equipment can be used from rubber rings followed by lighter discus and then the heavier ones. The actual professional throwers will usually do a 1 and a half round turn before releasing the discus to gain more power.

For relays, we were taught that the 1st runner usually runs the most. About 110m followed by the 2nd runner of 130m, the 3rd runner- 130m and last runner - 120m. Due to the curve, 1st and 3rd runner will have the keep to the left of the lane to gain advantage. THerfore, they have to use their right hands to pass the batons. The 2nd and last runner will usually use the left hand to pass/hold the batons. 1st and 3rd, 2nd and 4th runner is trained together respectively due to the curve and straight lanes they will be running. Long jumpers may be selected for shorter distances such as 1st or last runner, 200m runners with more stamina could be selected for the other 2 runners.

Steps should be counted from the accelerating line to the number of steps taken. (15-25 steps) A tape should be placed to indicate to the next runner to run when the previous runner reaches that tape. Hands should be raised higher in order for the runner to place the baton accurately and easily. baton must be passed with the box in the given lane. One baton drops the person who drops it have to retrieve it back before moving on. Obstruction to the other team may disqualify the team which drops the baton. I realised when the player behind couldn't catch up with the person in front, the number of pacing should be reduced. That's all for today.

After the workshop, we went for lunch at hall 1. THe canteen was air conditioned! so cool rite! After that, Lynn, Emily and I went to see Ryan's baby.. She's so cute. And guess what's her name? It's baby Rachel! same as my name! She's so cute and tiny. So glad to c people with their new family members. It's so heartwarming..

After that when over to adrian's place for dinner. Played with his neighbour Lian. THe end.. :)

Hi, today was a boring start for me. I've nv felt so free. I felt so relief after my bf's exam!! He was so sweet to stop by outside my hse on his way to meet his clients. After work, he still went to change my watch's battery. However, night was horror. I quarrelled with him over money issues! I hate it!! He offered to pay something using his credit card at 1st.. but later there were miscommunications and everything was in a mess. He's pushing all the blame to me for all the problems. I'll really be wary in future when he wants to offer help. Better don't owe him anything. I heart hurts. Today is our 2nd and a half yr anniversary and here we are quarreling again. He must be enjoying his sleep now.

Love is blind but not forever. When problems arises, we'll see true colour. Working together or leaving one to die. Helping each other and expect gratitude in return? Or helping each other sincerely without any expectation from the other party? Can love make me fly more rather than being chained in hell..

Emily and I went to support my brother who participated in the interschool basketball competition. It was held at singapore basketball association. NYJC was against VJC. Very close match at the 1st half. NYJC actually overtook VJC at some point in time. However, after that as the VJC picked up again, the scores started to drift further away. Ther's went NYJC's morale dropped. I realised that the players in the teams play a big role in lifting the spirits up. If players know how to overcome this barrier, they'll be able to perform so much better. I'm so proud of my brother who scored 3 or 4 shots and took over VJC at one point of time. Enjoyed the whole session.

Exams are over!! I was pretty disappointed with my 1st paper as I thought I was prepared for it. However, I just couldn't seem to focus when i'm in the examination room. What's wrong with me huh.. I stayed over at my frd's hall to study for the next paper. Felt that studying in groups can be really useful. After exams, I really feel so relieved. However, I can't forget that my boyfriend's exams soon too. It's actually tml. I tried my best to help him understand some of his notes. Hope he'll be able to do well tml. He has been understanding enough to let me stay over at my friend's hall. Has been really supportive. Guess we have started to bond again. Feeling happy again. The thing that I got to worry about is.. The camp is next week! I'm actually excitied but going to be worried of my role of being the MC during campfire. I hope the crowd would be supportive enough.
BTW, I've bought a size 4 soccer ball and a frisbee. Wanna prepare myself for the street soccer competition..
THat's all for the updates.. c ya..

I have problems with my boyfriend now. I feel that we are starting to drift apart. When I told him, he seems ignorant about it. When I further persist on it, he sounded irritated and said that he has to work tomorrow and do not wish to talk about it. If not today then when? Will there ever a good time to talk about our problems? He said he does not feel that there’s anything wrong about us. Of course he doesn’t feel anything because I have not changed anything towards him. However, I felt he has changed on the way he treats me. He seems to take me for granted. Besides that, I feel that he has not been trying hard to be in good terms with my family members. I’m very disappointed with him on this aspect actually. It’s my brother’s birthday and he didn’t even bother to wish him happy birthday. He told me he’ll try to be expressive to me. However, he’s not doing so again. I don’t mind not meeting each other as often, but if he don’t do anything to make my heart melts or make me feel that he stills loves me, he’ll soon lose me. I don’t feel important to him anymore. I’m beginning to doubt my future with him. How can I survive with someone who can’t express himself to me. Since he’s does not bother about our relationship, I don’t have the heart to continue this relationship too. I told him that I needed time out and when he feels that he’s ready to commit, he will then let me know. I really hope he is not cheating me or something. If he lets me catch him doing something unfaithful, I’ll never forgive me. At the meantime, I shall study hard for my exams and not bother about him anymore. It’s just not worth it when the other party does not even bother to care.

Bintan trip was so fun!! I stayed at Nirwana Resort. The place was beautiful. My brother and I supposed to go snorkeling in the afternoon. However the trip was not successful as it was raining heavily when we reached the location where we could snorkel. We asked the driver to ride the boat back to Bintan Island. And guess what? We got lost! The driver only knows how to get back to the island by looking at the landmarks around the sea. But the rain at that time was pouring too heavily and no landmarks could be found at all! It seems to me that we are in the middle of the sea out of nowhere. The driver called his colleagues for rescue and finally, they came by a jet ski. It was very cold and the raindrops were hitting painfully on our skins. A Singaporean couple and a family of 3 from Swiss land were also in the boat. We covered ourselves with black trash bags to keep ourselves warm. All of us managed to return safely and money was also refunded. The driver who brought us out apologized to us repeatedly and I could really feel his sincerely. He was not trained to read the bearings I guess. But this was really an experience for me being stucked in the sea.

We also visited a Malay village in the afternoon by a taxi. I really got to see how a real village town looks like. The people there ride motorcycles with mothers carrying their babies in their arms and the fathers in front riding their bikes. All of them look so carefree. I really envy them. They don’t seem to have such stressful lives living there. We also went to Pasar Ole Ole which was another shopping outlet. However the things there are catered especially for the tourists. Therefore, the prices for the products there are not cheap.

At night, we went to the KTV lounge to celebrate my brother’s birthday. There was a surprise cake given by the resort to him. We brought the cake to the KTV lounge and ate it there. The songs available were all very old but I enjoyed singing all the oldies. There was a group of Singaporeans sitting next to us. A family of 4 Caucasians sat on the other side of us. We were all very supportive as we applauded for each other after each song was being sung. The parents of the Caucasian went up to dance when their children were singing. They were so supportive! It really warms my heart..

The next day, we went for an early breakfast and got ready for wakeboarding at Marna Marna!! My brother and I were pretty excited as this was our 1st time doing it. The instructor seemed very experienced and told us what to do very soon, both of us were able to balance on the water. It was really fun! I drank a lot of seawater during the early stages though which I think is worth it as long as I was able to succeed wakeboarding. My brother was able to board a pretty long time too. My parents were on the boat too. They were there to give us encouragement. Lucky the weather was great that day. This activity somehow compensates the snorkeling session the day before.

Next we went to Jacuzzi at our resort. My mum relaxes there while my father, brother and I played monkey. We even went to the pool bar for a drink. We went back to our rooms and checked out at lunchtime. We went to a restaurant for lunch. The prices for the meals are not as cheap as I thought it could be. However, we had no choice or else there’s nothing least we could eat. When we got back to the resort, I played table tennis and chess with my brother. Lost both to him. So malu huh.. hehe Overall, I really enjoyed the trip very much. This is also a good gathering session for my family as well as a relaxation for me before I get back to my books as my exams are coming.

Today, Emily came to my house to study. We studied anatomy. Now I know what are the parts of the muscles. I also able to understand how muscles contract.This is so cool. I know what's a synaptic terminal, acetylcholine, acetylcholineseterase, the synaptic clef, sarcolemma end plates where all the receptors for ACh are. Action potential which travels all the way down to transverse tubules to produce calcium ions. Troponins will allow tropomysin to expose the active sites if the actin filament. The myosin heads will den bind with the active sites and pull the actin filament towards the center of sarcommere therefore causing muscles to contract. At the same time the acetylcholineseterase removes the acetylecholine from the synaptic clef. Hee.. just doing some revision here.

I'm going Bintan tml!! Hope it'll be fun. I went to my bf's house for BBQ. His mum was the one who invited me, not him. I couldn't bring myself not to talk to him at all. I had flu for the whole day. After dinner, both of us went to TPY for a walk. I know he needed a hp but just don't want to waste money. I have decided to buy one for him. But he couldn't decide which model he likes so that really gives me a headache on which to buy. I feel that both of us are drifting apart. I would really hope to make our relationship a better one. But if I were to talk about it, we'll surely quarrel again. So y risk toking about it rite? Besides, he dun seems to care or sense it too. He's just too busy with his sch work and job. I shall end here and update you with the details of the trip soon..

I can’t wait to share my interesting day with you. Let’s talk about my boo hoos stuffy 1st. As usual, I had a tiff with my boyfriend again. I was angry with him for not picking up my calls as I was trying to settle some arguments with him. I refused to message or call him today at all.

In the morning, Haresh offered to give Emily and me a ride to school. We ended being “malu” as we were late. We were all well dressed for the trip to Sentosa. After school, we were contemplating whether to take a cab or a train. Finally, we decided to save money and travel by train. The chicken rice that Emily recommended was delicious as I was super duper hungry just now.

When we were at Sentosa, the weather was extremely hot. I took the brochures and scan through to see if there was any interesting shows I could watch. Coincidentally, there was an animal show at Siloso Beach which was where we were supposed to alight. The monkeys have this red swollen thingie on their buttocks. Very special indeed. I saw a horn bill and a yellow snake which reminds me of my boyfriend as he will certainly freak out when he sees it.

I played the guitar and sang with the rest. When I really couldn’t stand the heat any longer, I went to have a dip in the water. We played Frisbee, soccer and volleyball. I think I’m going to have a sun burn as my skin is very red now.

Emily and I left 1st. On our way back, we saw 2 ladies wearing skimpy bikini tops and shorts walking around in the bus. I think they are from China from their strong accent. There were 2 young boys who are Caucasians who kept on looking at the women’s outfits. I got no idea what they were thinking. But after they alighted from the bus, the ladies requested to take photographs with the boys with their parents’ approval. I just have the feeling that maybe this is the 1st time the ladies sees the westerners. Therefore, they would wanna take the opportunity to take a photograph with them for remembrance. I feel that the tradition of conservatism within Chinese is going to disappear soon. We are all getting more and more open minded nowadays.

The next thing that I wanna share is that I happened to realize that I’ve lost my necklace. I expected to touch it when I placed my fingers on my neck but it wasn’t there! This necklace was given by my boyfriend during our anniversary. I cursed and swear that I must recall how I lost it. I remembered that I took it off during my shoot last Sunday when I supposed to help Josephine by being her model to display her apparels that she had designed. I thought that I had place the necklace into my makeup pouch. Therefore, once I reached home just now, I rushed to my room and searched for it. I realized that there are holes in the pouched! Could the necklace slipped out of the pouch when I did my makeup? I had been moving from places to places during the shoot and it’s impossible for me to track where I took out my pouch for touch up. I knew the only thing I could do now is to either buy a replacement or break the news to my boyfriend. I decided to buy a replacement as I don’t wanna expect another quarrel when him anymore. I broke this news to my mum and brother, hoping they can help me solve this puzzle. N guess what? When I checked the bag where I placed the makeup pouch the 2nd time, I realized the necklace was stucked at the corner! What a relief! Immediately, I went to my 4 faced Buddha and thanked him for allowing me to find my necklace.

I begin to study after that. I took breaks by practicing my piano. Suddenly, my doorbell rang. I saw an unfamiliar figure at the gate and felt something was not right. I asked the stranger what he wants. He looked pretty mature for his age and asked me to help him. He seemed to be crying and claimed that he has lost his wallet and needs money to go home. I began to ask why he was here in the first place. He told me he wanted to visit his friend who has just shifted here and the address was actually written in his wallet. I was pretty suspicious in the 1st place because this guy sounded like a young kid yet looked mature for his age. I called my mum down to judge him. My mum was suspicious too but later, after asking so many questions he convinced us that he was telling the truth. His handphone has no battery already and wallet gone. He must be so desperate. Poor boy. I gave him $15 to go home. I hope it is enough for him. I asked him if our house is the 1st house he approached. He said that he went to many houses already and one of the owner even threatened to call the police. At that point of time, I really felt so sad for him. If he’s really telling the truth, it’s really sad to see him go through all these shit. I felt rather ashamed of myself too that I was so unwilling to help in the 1st place. I’m actually very disappointed with those owners who threatened this young man. All he needs is just $15 which I’m sure anyone can afford especially these people who are living in landed properties. Why can’t they just offer a helping hand?

Anyway, I did a follow up. I messaged him to check if he has reached his house. He told me reached his house already. He told me that he had lost his wallet from 1 plus in the afternoon and seek the police for help. However, the policeman told him to go search for it again but still in vain. He tried calling for taxis but the drivers refused to ride him once they knew he had no money. Then he travelled all the way to my area and started asking for help and that is how he came to my house.

Although the story may sound ridiculas, I hope he's really telling the truth and I'd spent the money purposefully. But I'm really disappointed on how pple would react to pple who really need help. I can't imagine if the same thing happens to me and nobody wants to help me. I'll feel so helpless. This incident gives me the determination to influence my students to be more kind and helpful citizens rather than pple who will threaten and leave someone who is in need just because they wanna protect themselves which is equivalent to selfishness. Let's have a kinder society please!!!

Hmm.. I've always wanted to create a blog and at last I've done it.. Guess this will be a great place for me to express my emotions and thoughts as I move on with my life. Friendship has always been very important to me. Love life affects me even more.. Family commitment is also another factor which I promised myself to work on this year.. Putting in more effort into my studies before I go out and teach my students.. So many dreams which I hope to accomplish before I grow old and reaches the end of my life. I wanna leave this beautiful place with no regrets..